Christmas Morning

Time passes and memories fade but, the clouds forgot to take your face away.

The laughter we shared now, drowned by the tickin of the clock.

The lies we told long blown away with the wind.

The pain has subsided but, the love still remains.

Why did the passing time leave you behind?

Why does my heart still long for just one more kiss, just one more

night?

And when the night is over will I still remember, the way it felt

when we first found each other......

MY BLEEDING HANDS

A knight in armor stained with blood. Not of those he had murdered but of the innocent lives he had tried to save with his noble hands.

Death imminent, overwhelming and everywhere he casts his gaze. To fight or to hold a dying man's hands is his dilema.

To keep fighting or to mourn is mine.

Destiny....

There is no such thing as Destiny and Fate.

There are only Days and Nights.

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Here is something I wrote after watching The Curioius Case of Benjamin Button:

Every breath a gift every move a song, every word a mystery your life’s unbound
Every adventure you take has nvr been taken by anyone before
cos you’re a mystery, the reason for my melodies

unbound unshaken your strength’s your smile
every soul you meet astounded by your calm
no one has lived like you
no one can see like you
but u so humbly say
hmmmm.....

everytime you say goodbye i hold my breath
when you appear once more i breathe again
y does it seem that the years make you shine
i can only hold you mine for awhile
but our love will fill my life always for one more night

unbound unshaken your strength’s your smile
every soul you meet astounded by your calm
no one has lived like you
no one can see like you
but u so humbly say
hmmmm.....

The Blues...

You gotta love the blues...sings my heart with such simple and profound notes. Tells me everything i know and tells what i don’t....

i love the blues. But, it seems like the blues... love me more.

Life Untold...

It seems like it never stops raining. There were just too many things that were too painful & the memories just kepton piling up. ln the distance the sounds don’t make sense anymore.

The crying night shuts itself in misery. A few doors down another one screams and weeps for the lost of sight.

He blinks. But can’t tell if its day or night, the sounds around him keep him alive.
It is an endless road in a mirror of silence except for the pitter patter of raindrops of course.
Life is but merely a journey that can never ever be told in its full glory.

My Lanterns and Candles

Say at least 3 things tonight that you are grateful for before you go to bed and dream of them before you sleep. If you can’t even think of that then you are in serious trouble. We are all blessed, to be able to write, read to have internet connection! There are so many things that I am grateful for only because I choose to see the light at the end of the tunnel and not focus on the darkness that is overwhelming.

But how do you make the one you love see all things beautiful when they don’t reciprocate or even try? Does it mean that they do not even appreciate your concern or presence or simply can’t see the little sparks that makes life worthwhile. What do we do? We cannot change the one we love, neither can we change them.

So the light at the end of the tunnel starts to fade.....do we choose to love life or choose to love.

I choose to love life. I have lit my path with candles and have hung bright lanterns up the whole way through! I will still try to make the one I love see my lanterns and candles....I will try, but I simply refuse to let the dark engulf me again.

Consumed by it I was before and I bear a mark on my body to remind me to never visit that place again. I simply cannot. I will light the dark, I will paint the night with colours never before seen to man and I will love....

RAdio HAzy and GUitar CRaZy.

Nothing’s a sound echoes unbound, priceless melodies play an ambiguous sound
The soul of drums beat in the winds of a secret chime
Im just a radio hazy guitar crazy girl from uptown

Back in the days when innocence exist, when rock and roll was the feast of feasts
Old daddy smiled with his crocked teeth, said nobody could love her like he did
Taught her all about the legends who played for love. Told her daddy will always be with her.

Daddy hears no more but is still always around. I still Play him songs from yester years, music has no bounds.
Im just guitar crazy and radio hazy girl from uptown, love my rock and roll and my daddy..in love with the songs from yester times

Thunder and Rain

On a bed of nails we lay our heads, we dream of wars our troubles unsaid.
An endless fury of thunder and rain. Will we ever learn to bury our hate?
Lovers deceit, leaders lie, I who tell the truth holds no cry.
Distance an illusion, love brings pain, in an endless tide we swim in vain.
On my bed of nails i find my slumber and in my dreams i seek to conquer.
In my fight, victory i will claim. There is no truth you see, only thunder and rain.

My Birthday Cakes

I was looking through my pictures and found this. My bd cake a couple of years ago. As I am a twin our friends deemed fit that they put candles totalling our age.

To my friends who have blessed me with their smile, kind words, encouragement, shoulder and mere presence. Thank you.

Society plays an important role in an individuals growth. Today I like myself because of a huge role you played. You believed in me and loved me for whoever i am and an will be.

It was a great night out that night. And when friends care this is what your bd cake will end up looking like. I love you all!!

The only Reason for Love's Survial.....

There are many reasons why a relationship fails. Infidelity, lack of understanding, passiveness, possessiveness communication issues and the all time DEVIL; Money..the list is endless.

Yet there is only one thing that make it work. That survives the storm and thunder, builds bridges burnt much stronger. Forgives and forgets, takes responsibility and dares to make a change or whatever it takes for love to survive. And that is commitment. COMMITMENT AND ONLY COMMITMENT will see love through.

We have lost the ability to comprehend the meaning and depth of that word. Or we seem to realize its meaning an value a little too late...

Today I pledge, I will commit. I will hold true...

Till death do us part.

Us

In the hour of endless need, where two souls finally meet.

Would there be dust would there be rain, an endless space in need of pain.

When they collide, will they even know, or simply brush their shoulders so.

In the hour of endless need, there is a rush, but, for to bleed.

Would there be dusk or will it be dawn, the ruby skies will hide the morn.

In the hour on endless need, tears are rare, hard to breathe.

There will be no light nor rain nor dust, just an empty space,

that is but us.

Today i promise, to live life anew.

Today i promise, i will forgo my blues.

Today i promise, i will smile.

Today i will shine, the sun will see my might.

Today i pray, that perseverance will prevail.

Today i pray, even if all else fails.

let me see the beauty, of the sun rise again.

Deceit

I lie. i do.

to keep sane, to keep my individualiy, to not hurt someone else, to take the easier way out.

i evade responsibility sometimes. i do.

to simply run away and breathe, to ease my burden, to rest , to just catch up on some lost sleep

is it so bad that sometimes i deceit?

hold on....

Beauty prevails only for a few moments.....hold on to them.

OnLy MoMentS...

There are only moments of Clarity. When for that moment everything is crystal.

After awhile it is blurred. Cos we let go we move on. Whether we decide to take that moment with us, with our lives depends entirely on us.

Clarity comes not from fear, comes not from hate or from love for that matter. It happens when you realize both sides. The good and the bad, the pros and cons and when you find a balance within. It exhibits no emotions only a gentle calm, that flutters away every so quickly.

So hold on to those moments, bake in them for as long as you can....choose to take them with you on your journey. Cos in the end that is all you have.

Good old Love Songs....

What happened to good old love songs. When one could sing (quoting Elvis) love me tender, love me sweet, never let me go. You can make my life complete and i love you so...... simple yet sweet and profound

I wish sometimes I had grown up in the 50's, or 60's hmmm...70's too but, that era is for a completely different reason. Anyway... back to the good old days when commitment was more important than love.

Love is only a feeling so trivial cos it changes ever so frequently depending on our environemnt!! Yes of course we need love..but love alone cannot survive. We have so many distractions and temtations. Love goes on a frenzy, up and down. But a promise remains. The promise that one will always choose to remember that love and hold it true.

Now we sing of walking away from the troubles in my life (Craig David) when we should be facing and conquering them! We sing now, of stealing lovers, being unfaithful....

Where has the devotion, to a promise made gone.....

Take the Flight of the BiTTeR and the SWEET

There is undoubtedly love in this world. Some of us are extremely blessed to be giving and receiving love daily, others are lucky to have experienced it in their lifetime.

For those who have never felt it, I pray that your heart is strong enough to endure the pain it might possibly bring, and that your spirit is also big enough and your arms long enough to receive its gifts.

You will feel like your heart is getting bigger and bigger everyday when you love, so much so you will feel that it might just explode! But the next day when you wake you will find that it just got that little big bigger. And the cycle amazingly repeats itself.

Your heart the size of your fist but, its magnitude and capacity far exceeds that of this universe.

We must have faith that we can endure all that life brings because indeed we can. All those lives lived are but examples of this. All those lived in glory, like Mother Theresa, Beethoven, Princess Diana, and Mahatma Ghandi signify this to a deeper effect.

Loves without conditions, let it bring you both tears of joy and sorrow. Let it show you how strong you really are whatever the outcome. Having loved and to love only makes you stronger.

My lessons have been bitter sweet, but most of all exhilarating.....